faith .. d only way to keep smiling.. ;)

sometimes when evrything seems to go wrong u .. have to hold on and then be keep on walking ahead..
living away from ur loved ones in a foreign country is not so much fun as it might seem to be ..yes you get the freedom to enjoy and do what you wana do.. but then at the end of the day .. when u sit down and think .. you realise that this aint the life you want..
you miss having ur parents around.. you friends.. those small things you use to do .. however insignificant it might have seem then .. it now means the whole to you for your life is no more the same and things have changed..

I have been ill since i came back from Manchester.. all ive been doing is lie in bed.. sleeping because i cant get out and i feel so damn sick my throat is kiiling me .. and yet inspite of being so hungry i came eat coz it pains so much ..
its hard to admit but ive been missing my mum so much .. now when i think abt it .. ur ill alone.. no one around to ask u how u doing, no one to tell u dnt get up rest..
you got to do your own cooking, washing and cleaning... inspite of being ill...
in a way makes you think of how hard it is and how much your family really means to you ..
as i lay with pain alone .. tired it hurts .. but yet u make your way coz you know you got no other means.. you got to make do with things.. alone and by urself...

then youve got to find an inner faith .. confidence .. a drive to go on ..
even if youve got a mountain infront of u .. u make urself believe its just a hill.. and its gonna be easy ..faith is wat makes you go on .. no matter how hard it might be...


its the flame that lights up ur way ..always..